lil-angela

Is strange how when I start doing something because I like it is easy for me to do it, but as soon as it turns to be an obligation I loose interest, obviously I push myself a little harder to finish whatever I started now that is a duty to do excluding that now my heart is not into it so if I could have done it with all my might then the work could have been a hundred times better than the final outcome, except that if it wasn't an obligation maybe I wouldn't finish it at all XP.

I'm someone that knows how to hide her feelings pretty well and I have always thought that was a good quality, it never crossed my mind that when you love somebody is better to show what you feel and verbalize what you think, I only wanted him to see the good things in me because when I see his face of disproval it hurts too much, but even the things I've thought of as bad feelings are better to be expressed than kept in the dark. If I had known this before I would have never heard the words that tore my heart as I listen to them "is almost as you didn't even care". How do I explain him that is only that I think too much and articulate too l